I’m participating in a mind-body program for women who are experiencing infertility. We meet weekly and in between we are expected to engage in deep relaxation once or twice a day for ten minutes. I am hopeful that this program will help me manage the difficult and intense emotions associated with infertility. I can feel it slowly taking over my thoughts and I want to retain my identity as a woman first, and not simply as Someone Trying To Have a Baby and Failing.
I like the idea that I might be able to do something that could help me feel better. I know I haven’t been struggling with infertility very long – we’re only in our third month of treatment, trying for almost a year. But it’s already so hard, and I have to find a way to manage it.